Poems about pain, love and more...in estonian and english part 1

Some poems of mine... first part..

Mõned minu luuletused, esimene osa

if my hands were the brushes and your body a canvas

i'd paint you forever in the most beautiful colors

baby, you'd never be blank

**

we were never supposed to grow up

to step out of the galaxy form

limits pushed to the edge

and pushed us out of the motherly womb

but the hearts of ours

are still there

clinging onto hope that we would be a child

once again

**

isegi kui ma üritasin murda läbi sinu sisemiste müüride

ei suutnud ma kunagi leida piisavalt jõudu

laskmaks lahti hirmust,

et äkki ma murran iseennast

**

olukorra iroonilisus peitub alati tõsiasjas,

et proovides leida teed teise inimese laburündi keerukates käikudes

lõpetame me alati iseenda kaotamisega

**

she never really threw him away from her mind

but kept him in the back part of her soul

their hands connected and their eyes entwining

in the illusion of love

that was always there

**

having someone to care about

shouldn't come from the outer world

it takes none of the time and costs none of the money

to simply turn your eyes to your inner heart

and love its infinite depths of brokenness and beauty

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and when your eyes cried the salt streams

i put my hands on your cheekbones

and drew the stripes of the mascara

all over your face

embracing your ability to let go and be

**

you do not need any reason to be afraid anymore

for my soul speaks to you

from its darkest parts

finding the light along the way

**

some day i will clue your pieces back together

i promise i''ll do it without any fear

while i'm resolving the mystery of your soul

giving the parts of me away to you

and slowly, steadily

destroying myself

**

i used to think that your love

was something worth to hold onto

but now my eyes are wide open

and your darkness clearer to me

than ever before

**

if i had the delete button inside of me

i would never cancel anything

even the dark shadows are there

to remind me

how fiercely i lived

**

even if this life was the only one you'll ever live

you should never stop breathing into thought

that there might be

something more than this

**

staring at the stellar sky

clinging onto infinite light

**

even if my eyes look blank and my gaze stays frozen

my mind is never truly caged or closed

it is alive in its most beautiful harmony

**

my mind is a huge cage

whose flowers grew out a long ago

but i'm still flowing inbetween the two worlds

watering the seeds in each

every day

**

all the beautiful colors of my heart

are born from the overwhelming love and heartbeats

shared by two lonely souls

who once breathed into each other

too much

- Liis Lõhmus